Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A Happy Holidays Re-cap!!

This Christmas was hectic, sad, and quite frankly a lot of other emotions all rolled into one. There are quite a few things I am still so so thankful for...and something happened in the midst of my papa dieing that I think he shined a little light down on me for the holidays. What I mean by that is I was supposed to work on Friday the 23rd, and also Christmas Eve...but because he passed so soon and Is not having a formal funeral...I was graced with some paid time off (funeral leave) to be with my family!! This meant that I was able to go back to J's hometown for almost 2 days and see that side of the family. It was nice to get away and not forget, but put the pain aside and enjoy Christmas with my McClellan family :) So last minute we packed up and drove to VW on the 22nd but before that we opened our presents with our little family. I took pictures but my laptop i think has died on me so im pictureless @ the moment :(. I got my brown leather boots to wear with leggings and jeans!! I was so so excited! They are so nice and the only ones I could fit my athletic legs and pants into! And got a few extra things that I love from my hubby.

The hubby got some goooood smelling true relgion cologne, OSU hoodie, a turvis tumbler cup (amazing) and some other odds and ends...and the boy made out well...he got a play dough set, a 200 lego duplo set and mom and dad made a homemade lego table for him out of a target side table, glue and a lego mat! He loves it, but were having technical difficulties keeping the mat glued down. We may need to get some gorilla glue, rubber cement doesnt seem to be doing the trick :(

Once we rushed and packed, off we went! We stopped at a McDonalds for some grub and of course C had more cheeseburger on the floor than in his belly, o well those are not good for you at all. He did however inhale the apple slices and mommy's fries! once we got there C stayed up till almost 11!! HE couldnt wait to see papaw!! that boy loves his papaw so much. Poor Glenn doesnt stand a chance in saying no to him...he'll learn though :)
The next morning we prepared food and such, hung out eating cookies and junk food than went to Aunt Lori and Mike's hoe to open presents. They open presents a lot differently than my family. They go through each and every person! C was NOT having it can you imagin being almost 2 and have to watch people open every gift!? Needless to say he and I spent a majoity of the time in the basement playing with the corn hole that was set up for the drinking and fun later on :) He had so much frun tossing the bean bags into the holes, such a boy!
We had such a good time in VW!

We came home Christmas Eve day pretty early...we got all dressed for church and then planned on going to dinner afterwards, but a certain little boy was giving us H*LL!!! So we detoured to Ocharleys for dinner! God understands, I hope! Even at the restaraunt he was pretty bad. But poor guy was so so tired we really couldnt blame him for his "ways" ;)

FINALLY, Christmas day came! We got up at the crack of dawn, took Jordan to work and then Cayden and I came home to eat, clean, wrap the remaining presents and go to Aunt Kellys! christmas on my mom's side of the family is always chaotic but it is soooo much fun! All the kids are arould the same age and are really beginning to enjoy themselves and play with one another (or just steal each others toys ha ha) We had our fun, Cayden and Mason made out really well from the whole family! We are so blessed to hve such great family on my side and J's side! After while we went to the firehouse for a Christmas lunch/dinner with the other wives and kids. C ran around the bays (where all the trucks are) with the big boys the whole time! Thank the lord, because at this point he had not had a nap and could of been bad but they kept him going!! The little guy even got a little remote control car from Santa while there!! J got off a whole 12 hours early, so we stayed until 6 pm and we all went home!

This holiday season could of been a lot worse, but my family has stayed so strong! We really all looked like we were having a fabulous time. Im sure we were all having moments o sadness, but for the sake of our nana we smiled on showed her so much love (per usual). That was our holiday weekend! It was busy, not planned well, and sad...but I was able to be with my family and am still so thankful for that!! God is still so good!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Sad sad day

On Friday December 17th my papa was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. A diagnosis that was so unexpected because he was not even in the hospital for this. My papa was given about 6 months or less to live. He was pulled from all preventative measures and the plan was to send him to hospice to control pain and than send him home so we could spend as much time with him as possible. But with in 24 hours he took a turn for the worst that none of us were expecting. I received a call from my mom saying he was going to hospice and never coming home. That was Monday afternoon. Thank god my husband got the day off on Tuesday so he could go with me to be with the only man who has ever been a constant in my life.

We got there at around 1230 pm. Jordan stayed till about 5 to go be with cayden. I stayed with my family including about 4 cousins, my mom And her 2 sisters, and 3 of nana and papas close friends came to kiss him goodbye. Eventually us cousins left to eat at bw'3! We were starving, going stir crazy and just needed a different atmosphere. By the time we got back it was about 8. By 1 or 2 I'm not sure really, we were all so exhausted it was down to myself, 2 cousins, 2 aunts, my mom and of course nana. Sometime around 3 am our moms came to kick us out. They wanted alone time. So my cousin and I drove home to her place where I don't even remember falling asleep.

Than, at nine am Tara came down and woke me to tell me papa went to heaven. As much as we knew this was inevitable, it was still a huge blow. I had no emotions to give, and nothing to really say.

The last few days have been such a whirl wind but I thank god I got to hold his warm hand and
just talk. I got to hear his voice even if it was not very comprehendable and he smiled and was able to squeeze my hand when I spoke. I feel very at peace that I was able to have that moment. He has meant the world to me for so many reasons that some may never understand. He will truly be missed by Anyone who met him.

Christmas will be a little less fun, but our family will make the best of it and remember how much he cared About us. Now our focus is on nana. She has been the rock of our family, and although she is still putting on a brave face we know different.

Monday, December 19, 2011

a case of the mondays & update on papa

Well, it seems to be a trend with Cayden and I after I work a sat and sun. Pure and utter lazzyness :) Plus he and I have been fighting some kind of chest/ upper congestion so we have been even lazier than normal. In fact, we have taken two naps today. As much as seeing him cough and sniffle hurts, it pretty convenient to be feeling yucky at the same time. He is not nearly as wild and just wants to hang around and watch movies. I know this will be a distant memory wants Mason gets here, so I am cherishing this as much as I can.

It is almost 5 and he is still sleeping! I am making lasagna soup for dinner tonight, I can not wait to try it! Here is the recipe if you want it!

lasagna soup recipe
I just hope mine turns out like this.......

An update on my Papa...
today is just another day for bad news. We know he will be passing on to be with our Lord, but everyday it seems to get worse FAST. Just this past Friday our family had met with hospice and the plan was to send him there for a few days...get his pain meds under control and than send him home so he could be with us for Christmas. That did not seem like too much. We knew he would only probably last an hour or so but at least be with us. But that does not seem to be the case anymore. He is no longer leaving hospice and will spend his last days there. It does not seem real what I am writing right now. How is is that a month ago I was on the phone with him laughing, and now he is lying in this bed not looking like my papa anymore. I pray that I can see him as much as possible and that if he needs to go today than I am ok with that as long as he is no longer in any pain. Please lord be with him and keep him comfy. We, his family...will cry, and feel like we are suffering but we have each other and God.

So...there is a little 22 month old standing next to me saying, "mo...mo...mo...MOM...moreeeee!" So, I must go, everyone have a great night! Jordan will be home tomorrow @ 2 I can not wait!!! <3

Thursday, December 15, 2011

you know your a parent when...

Yesterday my husband and I had our only day off together! Poor guy is working 4-24 hours shifts this week...I work saturday and sunday, than he is back at it again. :( Sometimes I worry about C and him not seeing his daddy everyday like most kids, but when you see just how excited he gets when daddy walks in the door @ 6ish it makes it all better.

Anyways...J and I had an epiphany yesterday. We had his younger sister watch C so J and I could finally start and finish Christmas shopping. We left at nine am and didnt come home till after my 33 week appointment which was not until 330pm. So, were in the car, getting close to our first stop at Kohls and we both looked at one another and said, Omygawsh! we are parents! (Clearly we have come to this conclusion a long time ago...but if your a new parent you probably like us notice certain things you begin to do that are something your parents used to do which for some reason made us feel even more like a parent.) And we both began telling stories of how we remember being a little kid, and the sitter came over while the parents mysteriously disappeared to go shopping, but never brought in any bags?!? WTF!

We had such a good time out together!! We shopped the whole time, ate Chipotle inside the mall and than of course had to stop for red velvet cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory. The pregnant lady may or may not of opened hers in the car on the way to babies r us. oops. So of course we got almost all shoppin done except little things for each other and a few gift cards which we will get at the Kroger so we can get all those fuel points! Those can really save you a pretty penny! We did buy one thing though that we did bring in the house with us upon returning...NO in fact we ran it inside...tore open the box...and tried to get C REALLY excited just like mommy and daddy were....this is what caused all the excitement...
Im not sure we are keeping this one though...when he sat on it his little botty didnt quite fit. Like the whole was too small, and if said boy peed "in" potty, we are afraid the pee may not make it into the hole. You feel me?!? What is your fav potty?

Well, hope everyone has a great day C and I are on our own again till saturday morning and C is not feeling very well.
P.S. we are saying lots of prayers for my papa right now. HE is in the hospital (has been there for over a week now) and just seems to be one problem after another. Yesterday he had a biopsy on a mass they discovered on his pancreas! When they were not even looking at that organ they were looking at his liver. Friday evening we are recieving news about what this mass is, although we all kind of know the answer. I have been very very fortunate to have my grandparents so close to me my whole life. And I am not ready to give one of them up to the Lord. Sorry God, just not ready for your impending plans. So please pray that the docs dont tell us the C word.
My papa and I last Christmas <3

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

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Monday, December 12, 2011

some time off.

Clearly I have not posted in quite some time now. Life has just been one big ball of hectic! For so many reasons I have not kept up on my blog with excuses ranging from the hubs working all sorts of crazy hours...to being pregnant and trying not to over do it with keeping up on house, C, meals, work etc. But today I made it a lazy day...more so because my ankles are sooo swollen all the way up to my thighs and I felt like my body needed to rest so we lounged. During C's nap time I finally got my laptop out from the bookshelf (the internet wasnt working on mine so I was using my husbands) and decided to read what I have already written in my past posts. Although I have only been doing this for about 4 months or so there were things I read...pictures I came across that I had kinda forgotten about and it really made me think how important this will be maybe not to my boys...and maybe (probably not) even to my husband...BUT FOR ME! Especially with the upcoming arrivial of M...life as we know it will change again (for the better obvi) and my brain will most likely go to mush even more than it has already...

SO in saying all this...I am vowing (to myself) to make sure I write and post pictures in this blog AT LEAST 2 times a week! This is so not a hard task. And after seeing what I have already captured through writing and photo I will make sure I follow my word.

EN-E-WAYZ....
I will leave you with the following pictures from the month of November...and the first week in December...
                                   Mommy got a girls night out to see Breaking Dawn!
 cheese!!!

                       
At the tree lighting ceremony downtown Cinci

 this about sums up how much they love one another <3

 popcorn night! Toy Story 3 was showing :)

you are so silly little guy!

And then you are sooo beautiful.

This was your first time INHALING thanksgiving dinner! You loved every bit of it

Nanas famous chocolate dream cake. Mommy made this to show Daddys side of the family :)

You are finally wearing hats!! And gloves!!!

A mini family shoot with our new photographer...

Trucks!

life is so sweet

 notice something different?? You finally let mom and dad put the clippers to your head (with the help of a treat but heck! Who cares it was free!!!!)

Santa came a little early for the little :)


That Santa sure does pick out gooood stuff!!!



mommy and C
Life is so good :)